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December 21st, 2009
xlyss1088x
 | 11:57 pm - work :(
Hey guys!!!So ive been freaking out lately.My life is so stressful & my life is so boring....well ateast i think it is sometimes.I hate my job so much at cvs i am so close to quiting its redic.Steve has been so nosey & a dick lately.He wants me to do this cross training in pharmacy & i do work in the pharmacy sometimes and ring at the registar and just ring ppl up for there perscriptions.So this past friday steve came up to me and asked me to do this training thing & i told him flat out no because i dont want to learn more about pharmacy when that is not what i want to do with m life.So than steve says o0o well maybe it will help you change your mind & im all like uhhhhhh NO.i hate the pharmacy so much why do you think im gunna change my mind.Also i ust applyed to school & im really hoping that i get in and if i do im totally going & im quitng cvs for good.But anyway back to the training thing.
Sosteve said finally ok its fine i dont have to do it & that he would hire one of the girls that works there alsos brother.So i saw him go back to the pharmacy i guess to tell them that he's gunna hire this girls brother.But of course this story cant end well cuz im pissed at my boss.Like an hr or so later steve comes back to me and says o0o alyssa your gunna do the cross training.....o0o yea and didnt i tell him b4 that i said NO.yea but he's like well your doing it so im really md at him rigt now & if he says i have to do this im quiting cvs cuz i shouldnt be forcd to do something i dont wanna learn.Like im goin to school for Fashion so why would i want to learn to be a pharmasist....yea bad idea & its not happening.But i still have to have another talk with my boss and tell him im not doing it.
Wish me Luck (im nervous)
<33Lyss
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xxiblvnfariesxx
 | 01:57 am - Hey Christms!
HOPE EVERYONE HAS A MERR CHRISTMAS!! =]
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that_poison
 | 01:04 am - 247. State of the Melissa
Alright, so I finished my first REAL semester at college. This is actually really hard for me, because I'm already a year behind everyone I graduated with. =\ I got 2 C's, a B, and an F. The F is because I couldn't withdraw from my Psych course. Fuck me, right? My total GPA right now is a 0.9. Again, fuck me.
The plus side to this is that I'm working more, thanks to it being the holiday season. I hate that I normally don't get very many hours, but I really do love my job. It's retail Hell, but my coworkers are unbelievably awesome. I have my two closing buddies, Nick and Gabe, who just make me laugh constantly.
It kind of reminds me of that year in highschool when I hung out with John, Joey, Matos, and everyone. I missed being one of the guys.
I've been really stressed out lately with school, but Danny is always there for me which makes me feel a lot better. Honestly, school stresses me out so much. I like working a lot more, but I don't want to be stuck in retail the rest of my life, so I need a little piece of paper that says I wasted the time and money I COULD have spent working, getting an "education." And I gave this semester hell. And here I am with a C average, and barely a 1.0 GPA. I want to cry, but it's not worth it at this point. I fucked myself over, so I'm the only one to blame.
On another note, I completely tore the shit out of my hands at work. Gabe got out at 5, so when I clocked in, I took over for him behind the skate counter. The first board I had to grip, I got a few air bubbles under the tape. Instead of pressing them out, like a sane person, I tried to rub them out.
In case anyone was completely lost? Grip tape is the black piece of adhesive backed fucking sandpaper, that goes at the top of the deck.
Sandpaper.
Across my hands.
Fuck, did that end badly.
Needless to say, Megan and Nick gripped the rest of the boards that night. Nick did teach me how to put the rest of the board together, though. So, Amanda (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) lifeless09) if you still have that deck and want to use it still, if you get the parts, I can totally put it together for you. =)
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josiewillrocu
 | 03:31 pm - juust one more day, just one more day...
i have to keep telling myself that i am only here (at RCNJ) for one more day and then i go home for winter break tomorrow night. i finished my short story at Starbucks this morning. I'm not sure how great it is though since I've read it so many times. I hope I get feedback from some kids in the hall before tonight so i can edit it. Now i just have to work on my presentation of this story, but I'm stuck. I've never summed up any of my writing; this is the most difficult part. Whenever someone asks me about any of my writings, I seem to tell the whole story or at least up to the climax. Grrr... It's about a boy and a girl and another girl and the recent lack of drugs and alcohol. I want to make a back cover since I made a cover, but what will it say?! My whole objective with this presentation is to leave the audience wanting to read my story in whole. I still have to choose a short excerpt to read, too!
I should go to the library and finish this, and I really shoul just get out of this resident hall! While I sat in the lounge earlier working on my reflection paper for the project, Brian opens the door and asks "Do you hate me, Jes, because everyone in the hall hates me." I told him to go away because I had to get my work done and that's the truth. Do I hate him? I don't hate anyone, but that is not on my mind right now. It's the last two days of classes and I really do not want to deal with any stupid drama these days!
Plan: watch some TV while eating a bowl of cereal (my tummy is getting hungry) then re-read story to come up with summary for back cover. I am dreading the fact that I will have to go out in the cold to use a printer later!
Love, Peace, and Gloves.
~Jo!
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December 18th, 2009
josiewillrocu
| 02:36 am - putting off
so i came home last night for the weekend and realized that i forgot my bc pills which is no big deal since i have one for tonight and one for saturday and planned to go back sunday night and come home for break tuesday night. now i remember that i wanted to see people monday night, grrr... conundrum.
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December 17th, 2009
josiewillrocu
 | 06:22 pm - going down in flames
so i broke my sobriety streak last night. i guess it lasted for about 6 weeks. last night i wanted to cheer up my roomie because she's been dealing with drama due to her ex-best friend. i hunted down some alcohol to mix and was told i could take the bottle with no exchange of money. i get back to my room and while i am getting bundled up with my roomie (we were going to drink outside for a bit) dave comes into our room (he was in the room where i got the alcohol). he immediately asked us who we were drinking with and if we were partying. i told him it was just for us and that we were not partying. when me, my roomie, and our neighbor get to the convenience store for OJ, brittany (my roomie) gets text messages from dave ranting that i was a bitch to him. he's said he didn't want this the night before his birthday. um okay, you're going to a bar at midnight where we all know you are going to get shitfaced with all the wrong people, none of whom are your true friends but just want a reason to go to a bar. i just wanted to have a chill girls night before brittany left for the semester and everything went sprialing down a hole.
i tried calling dave to apologize, he wouldn't answer. i call corey and ask to talk to dave, and dave didn't want to talk to me and i heard him in the background bring up how i am dating a 6 foot tall junior in high school. how the fuck did that have anything to do with the situation. and he has no idea that i just shed tears over THAT situation when i was on the phone with my BFF Jenn and deleted Tony's phone from my number in hopes that i will no longer contact him and leave that up to him. i guess that's part of the reason why i wanted to get my hands on alcohol.
we ended up in our neighbors' room to drink in the warm atmosphere. then midnight came and i was not allowed to be in the room while everyone sang happy birthday to dave. that didn't bother me because i want him to start his birthday in a positive atmosphere, whatever. then i go back to drinking with the girls when they tell me that sean was kissing shannon in the room with everyone at midnight. in my durnken stupor i managed to send a text to sean before ana stole my phone so i would not text: "so i hear you are kissing shannon now, but i guess meaningless kisses are your thing. woops!" ana was kind enough to read what he wrote back to me and i still find it hard to believe that sean wrote it himself and that someone else didn't send it.
"Jes...im sorry...i have been trying to maintain a friendship with u but things like this make u seen so bitchy seriously...idk why u would feel the need to say something about me and shannon...uhave no right to tell me what to do like..idk why u would say that"
i deleted what i sent him back because ana said she would slap me if she found out that i had texted him. it was something like "i'm sorry, i'm drunk. but you are the best thing that has happened to me here and all the other guys are dicks." he didnt respond to that.
how the fuck did this night get so bad for me when my only purpose was to cheer up my roomie which was accomplished.
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December 16th, 2009
starrynight248
 | 03:32 pm - It's been a while
Twenty-one!
Another birthday has come an pass, but I'm not yet done celebrating it. I went out Sunday to get my first legal drink ... it took us a couple of tries til we found the right place. I ended up going to Sal's with Johnny, Frank, and Darren. My first drink was a screwdriver, and the second was a LIT. Frank bought the LIT for me. Sal's prices were pretty good ... from what Johnny says.
Through out the day one of my coworkers was texting me, and I wasn't responding because I didn't know what my boss was doing with her. The coworker that was texting me is Rachael, and she just doesn't show up to work sometimes. She also had me take her home to Bridgewater, and rarely ever paid me. I finally responded to her saying to ask Beckie. Then she said "dont you work there...". I said to ask Beckie because I wasn't going in today so she should ask her. She then replied with "K". A couple of minutes later she sends me this, "Whats ur prob? U mad @ me bc i dont want to work 4 free. I know when i dont come in everybodys screwed-but according to her everyone is gone from all of my 15 classes and she refunded their money so, u wont be so busy. (next text) Sry, 20 classes." Then I said "youre asking me questions that i dont have the answers to. so dont get pissy with me when i dont answer you." Apparently that pissed her off because she then replied back with "Excuse me??? I sent u a txt long time ago fucking response even if u dont know is nice". I took the higher road by not cursing back. Mind you she is almost 30 years old. I sent her "you should just ask the boss because she would know. you dont need to cop an attitude with me. dont respond because im not going to respond back to you. this conversation is done." She then replies back a few minutes later with "see u @ work". She didn't go into work yet again.
That night was fun. Darren, Marissa, Kim, Jenna, and Eddie showed up to my house and we went with my brother Matt to Applebees. Takara met us there. Sam was our waitress. My brother paid for all of my drinks and all the shots. First shot was a Jolly Rancher. Second was a Komazi (sp?). Then I got a mud slide, strawberry daiquiri, and LIT. Sam also brought me another shot ... which I have no idea what it was. Then Sam also surprised me with singing Happy Birthday to me. I was in tears from embarrassment. After that we went to Darren's and had a few more drinks.
*Edit 12/22:
Carpaccio's was on Friday and I had a lot of fun. I was scrambling to get 15 people since a lot of people who said yes, didn't show. I felt bad that I was late because Nuber was running late because of her sister. I think everyone had a good time, and enjoyed their food. I also found out Merlot wine is not for me. After Carpaccio's a few of us went back to Darren's house for cake and presents. Marissa, Ashley and Alyssa brought over some alcohol. It was a great night with great friends. Playing fuck you pyramid, fuck the dealer, kings. Thanks to everyone who came out!*
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December 15th, 2009
josiewillrocu
 | 06:05 pm - uhoh!
i'm having some not so good thoughts lately, like thoughts of making bad choices. did you know you do not have to be drunk to hook up with someone on a whim?! i was surprised, too.
i'm just so anxious to get home and be with someone who makes hooking up seem like a good choice! :P
coming home friday for sarah's birthday dinner (and to take care of the dog while my parents drive to North Carolina). I hate sleeping in the house alone because I always think something terrible is going to happen so I think I will invite a big, strong boy to protect me. YumYum! Working at Menlo 12-8 on Saturday. FunFun! Then back to Ramapo Sunday night so I can socialize with whoever else is here before break (damn you Chloe for making us wait until the last day of classes to present our final projects!).
Tonight after homework/studies: Moe's burritoes and "The Hangover" with the RamFam!
Oh yeah, the good thing about being here with little work to do: time for the gym!
Love, Peace, and BackSeats,
~Jo!
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December 14th, 2009
josiewillrocu
| 09:54 pm - taking a break from fiction
woot! I just have to come up with a fancier title for my Donnie Darko analysis and finish my short story plus complete my idea development presentation as well as absorb the media literacy material that will be on the final and then I'm home free!
i'm in the lounge and have actually let me characters move forward in the story :p i'm a bit stuck so i'm taking a break and might step away from it for tonight...
i posted some snippets of footage from the past year of SPUDUNK outtings. You can find this on YouTube under my account of videos or "a just josie production." this video will assist you in postponing your studies for 4 or 5 minutes ;)
i'm glad that it's only monday and already Kyle and April (my two main characters) are confronting each other about the conflict in the story. this story isn't due until tuesday and i think i can wrap it up in 5 pages so I'm right on track!
kk, back to Bischoff. So done in this library!
Love, Peace, and BackSeats,
~Jo!
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December 13th, 2009
josiewillrocu
| 02:57 pm - homework, you jerk.
at this moment, i just have three project to complete: study for media literacy final, edit my Donnie Darko production analysis, complete my short story and finalize how i will present that to my idea development class (yes, i'm double dipping this project).
i have my DD coffee and a donut so i am ready to hit the books.
shit, but now there are fire trucks on campus in this shitty weather up here so i'm uber curious, but, alas, I have to get to studying and hopefully finish my Donnie Darko paper today so I focus on my short story for the rest of the week.
Mom and Dad came up today for breakfast; mom called last night to ask if I would be free. I guess they miss me a lot since I haven't been home since Thanksgiving and not soon after I came back did I call mom crying about missing South Plainfield and everyone/thing associated with those good times.
I'm so flip-flop here. Some times I love these kids, other times I cannot stand them. I guess that's how it goes with friends though.
Last week, I went to a party and don't know why, I hated it from the start. Maybe cuz Tom wasn't there. Before we left, Brian went into the bathroom with Lisa to talk to her. Sometimes I feel like he only hooked up with me because I was the most vulnerable one around to substitute Lisa while she was away. Later at the party Lisa (who may have been a bit drunk by then) asked if I hate her. I don't and I told her this. But sometimes I don't know how I feel about her. I feel like she is my best girl friend here (other than Brittany, my roomie). I realized this when tom invited me to a ZBT party in the village Thursday night. He told me to come with someone so I wouldn't be alone. Brittany was home and so was Lisa. I told him I didn't have anyone to ask because he is my closest friend here; I can talk to Tom in a chill manner and not expect any drama in return. I ended up asking Dave because he's always looking for a party so he can make connections. By the time we were about leave, the party got busted :(
I hope I get to see these people over break. if we're all on good terms come Spring, they'll be some Martin Drive backyard parties.
okay, I need to stop procrastinating now.
Home Friday to Monday. One class Tuesday then home for break!
Love you Bitches :P (too much "mean girls")
Love, Peace, and Backseats,
~jo!
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